TRANSFORMATION OF A MYSTIC

Friday, November 30, 2012

Healing Beliefs

"If your core belief is 'I lack,' and you carry that belief with you, then you will unconsciously perpetuate or create the circumstances that reflect the belief. But your circumstances are completely malleable: They simply reflect the dictates of your mind." ~Marianne Williamson, The Law Of Divine Compensation.

I have found this to be Truth about all of my beliefs about me and about my life, not just my financial beliefs.

This applies to my dealing with anything I find difficult--body aches and pains, difficulties in relationships, beliefs about my worthiness in receiving love in my life--literally everything about us and our experiences in our lives are directly related to our beliefs.

"In our ability to think about something differently lies the power to make it different." ~also from Marianne Williamson's book I cited above.

I have first-hand evidence that this, too, is complete Truth! In my working to change my thinking, eventually it changed my beliefs. Changing my beliefs changed my life dramatically.

I Love My Life! My life is totally miraculous these days and I am very grateful!

I have shifted my beliefs in many areas of my life. I am still working on it in others. Before beginning this journey of changing my beliefs and creating the life that I want, I was totally overcome with very difficult things I had created in my life: A body filled with horrific pain from a debilitating lumbar spine malady that ultimately drove me to two spinal fusion surgeries for resolution--unsuccessfully. I literally could not get out of bed and walk without excruciating pain. I was depressed and no longer even wanted to be on the planet. I felt helpless and beaten. In that energy and with those beliefs about my circumstances, I then created totally debilitating, all-over-body pain and exhaustion in me--Fibromyalgia.

All of these experiences were directly related to my beliefs. It all came from my thoughts and my fears.

Am I saying that these things were in my head? Absolutely not. But I am saying that my thinking created the energy, ultimately, the body chemistry, that allowed all the other things to occur in my body.

We are creators. We create everything in our lives. No one else creates in our lives--Others are simply players we have hired to help us create.

We are here to discover that we are the creators of our lives and that we have the power to create consciously and abundantly or unconsciously and blindly.

We are not victims. We are creators!

If you do not like what you are creating, change it.

It takes time to shift thoughts and feelings. It takes stick-to-it-tive-ness.

Ultimately changing your thoughts changes your feelings and this, then, changes your beliefs.

Beliefs are at the core of everything that we create in our lives. Nothing that happens to me do I see as a passive act on my part. I can see my beliefs working in every place and circumstance of my life!

In order for me to start changing my beliefs, I had to start with tapping into my thinking, into the random thoughts and feelings that were going on in me from moment to moment, and changing them into what I really wanted--even if I didn't really believe it in the beginning.

I found it works best for me to recognize and become aware of my thoughts and feelings without judgment about them. This was not easy at first, because I realized that many of my thoughts and feelings were negative.

Losing the judgment about whatever I discover is going on within me is critical for me. If I get stuck in self judgment I cannot move forward to create the positive and the miraculous in my life.

Over time, the negative was replaced by the positive--and that has made All The Difference!

I am here to tell you that: All Things Are Possible!

It is a process. It is doable. If you are unable to find your way on your own, find yourself an Empowerment Coach that will help you clear the path, reprogram your thinking and feelings and support you in finding your power to make your life exactly what you want it to be!

And so, I ask you: "What are you thinking today?" Does it support what you want to create? If it does, Congratulations! If it doesn't, CHANGE IT!"

Love, Hugs, Blessings & Happy Healing,
Barbara

Thank you to the contributors of the images I used in this blog entry!

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Rocking Through the Thunder Storms!

As a child my mother used to rock me in the big rocker in front of the big picture window, watching the lightening flash and listening to the thunder pound. She did this with me and my brothers because we were terrified of the storms.

In time I grew to love thunder and lightening storms...because they were a time of great closeness with my mother. This nurturing and comforting place was not something my mother shared much as I was growing up. But when thunder and lightening visited, she became the most soothing and cuddling mother!

We all need cuddling from time to time.

For some of us, we can no longer just go to our mother for this kind of support. For some of us, Mom is no longer in the physical. For others, it is just not feasible or we feel too vulnerable about our neediness. Or, maybe we didn't have a mother that was able to nurture at all.

I have discovered that I have my own "Inner Mother" inside of me. I have found that I can "go within," in a meditation state, and with my intention being to nurture me and love me, just as my mom once did with me. In this way, I become my own parent and I parent myself!

What a discovery to find that this is possible!

I am grateful!

Become the mother that you lost or that you never had or that is not available to you when you need her.

Nurture and take care of you!

Do the best job possible for you! You deserve it!

Feel the closeness and KNOW beyond any doubt that you are held and you are perfectly safe and loved--any time that you need it or want it!

Most importantly, let it be Okay that you need it or want it! And then, work to allow yourself to receive it! It is WONDERFUL! And it is so worth the spiritual work to learn to allow ourselves to receive the good things in life!!

(Thank you Getty Images, for the use of this photo)

Happy Self-Nurturing!

Love & Hugs & Blessings,
Barbara

Monday, October 29, 2012

I AM BLOWN AWAY!

According to Blogger Statistics, I have readers in the United States, Russia, United Kingdom, the Netherlands, Indonesia, the Philippines, Thailand, Austria, Australia, Canada, Germany, United Arab Emirates, Mexico, Malaysia, Romania, South Korea, and India!

You could knock me over with a feather! I am STUNNED to discover this!

I started blogging because I was being tugged on by Spirit to share my spiritual journey openly with others. This was not an easy thing for me to do, but, Spirit was relentless about nudging me forward about this.

I finally agreed and became willing to take the risks to blog, to surrender to the process and to allow the vulnerability that blogging openly about my trials, tribulations and triumphs through life bring to me.

I believe that we are all the same in the deepest place of who we are. Our DNA may be slightly different. But if I look deeply enough, I see our essence is identical.

We all struggle at times to find our way. I have found that it helps to understand and grow past difficulties better when we are brave and go searching for support, allowing others to see and know the real us.

When I spend time with others in this way, it helps me to remember that I am not alone, that I am not as weird as I sometimes fear. It somehow gives me permission to step into myself more deeply--the good and the parts about which I can be in great judgment. It helps me to grow my courage and take more risks to go after the things I feel guided to do, even if I am feeling terrified or weak. It helps me take greater risks, dream bigger, believe more, manifest more and embrace more of life.

I believe that if I share my journey, it may help another find more courage to embrace their own more deeply.

I have been blessed with many beautiful, loving and empowering fellow travelers that have shared their experiences and wisdom, helping me greatly along the way.

I feel blessed and grateful to all of you that read my blog! This is a huge gift and a humble honor discovering this today!

Thank you for supporting me!

It is my hope and my prayer that my blogging may also help in supporting you!

Thank you, Spirit, for always nudging me forward!

Love & Hugs & Blessings, Dear Soul Family!
Barbara

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Embracing & Loving My Inner Child!

I had the most wonderful time in Disneyland this week!

It seems that the older I get, the better I am at being a kid! With wild abandon, I got on every ride I could! I took in every smell and relished in the sensuality of every flower, every color, every texture, every scene of every place I went there--I danced in the Magic and the Wonder of EVERYTHING!

I got to hook up with a dear friend of 45 years that I have not spent much time with in a long while. Doing this helped me to remember being a kid and playing together. I so enjoyed her and her husband at Disneyland!

I let it be Okay that I rented an ACV, a motorized convenience scooter, as I knew I could not walk for three solid days all over Disneyland. I rode and I walked. I listened to my body and I honored, accepted and did what I needed for me.

Miraculously, I found that I don't get motion sickness from twirling around on rides like I always used to--if I let go and move with the flow of the ride! (I found this wisdom to be TRUTH in all areas of my regular life--long before now, and was pleasantly surprised to discover it applicable on roller coasters, too!)

I didn't do "Being A Kid" very much the first time through! I was always taught to be responsible, keep my nose to the grindstone, work hard, excel and to do my best to strive for perfection in all things. I learned that fun and play are optional, definitely not necessary in life.

WRONG!

It is not that those things were wrong or bad for me THEN. They were the things I needed to learn and do and they served me well in their time. But times are a-changin' and I am learning to let loose and shift my beliefs on many things.

My father going Home in January set me free in ways I had no idea I was not free. I can see him smiling now, sharing my Joy in my discoveries of things I put on a back burner for most of my life, until now. I opted to be with him and do for him what I could in the Winter of his life. Before Dad there was my mother, and raising my children, my job, and my extended family. I am not sorry about any of it. I could not have done any of it any other way.

My beautiful and fun-loving grandchildren and grandnieces and grandnephews have helped me to remember how to play and have fun! When they want to play with me, I say, "SURE!" And I drop everything and go play with them. With their parents, I was dog-tired from working, going to school, parenting and household responsibilities. There was little time left over for Play and Fun--although I did my very best at it, even then.

Now I am in a different place than ever before in my life. I can play more and have more fun than ever before! The expanded experiences are welcomed and they feel MAGNIFICENT!

The more I embrace all the FUN in my life and the more I PLAY, the more JOY I experience in ALL THINGS in my life!

I highly recommend that you find the things that are fun and play for you and that you do them as often as possible!

I wished to experience more JOY! I wished to experience more of being in the NOW!

I have found that "Fun" and "Play" and "Joy" and "Being In The Now" are all interchangeable words for the same thing!

I am doin' it and I am LOVIN' IT!

Thank you, Jiminy Cricket, for teaching me to wish and to dream: "When you wish upon a star, your dreams really do come true!"

So Wish and Dream and BELIEVE and Play and enJOY everything that comes to you, even the little things--maybe even especially the little things!

Love, Hugs & Blessings,
Barbara

Thank you, Disney folks and Victor Johnson, for the use of your photos and artwork!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Gratitude Is The Answer!!

I have always felt like I am the luckiest person that I know!

Some say there is no such thing as luck. Maybe that is true. Whatever this is, I was born with it. I was born with a great ability to bring into my life the most miraculous and amazing things--Great Abundance, Dear Family, Magnificent Friends, endless bounds of connection to people that I love and feel very close to, unbelievable opportunity and the ability to transform negativity into positivity! It and they all show up in my life, and in huge amounts!

How wonderful is that???

I was also born with the ability to bring into my life defeat, unbearable pain, difficulty, judgment, fear, rejection and abandonment.

I can be blessed. Or I can be damned. It is my choice--simply by where I put my intention, my energy and my beliefs!

What do I want?

I am so very blessed!

Maybe it is not luck.

Maybe it is Blessing!

I was reading Oprah Magazine's November 2012 issue recently. In it Oprah talks about having fallen down on her commitment to Gratitude Journaling every day--the commitment to listing in a journal, at least five things every day for which she is grateful.

I have never done a Gratitude Journal, but this resonates with me very much! I find myself feeling great gratitude for so many things in my life on a regular basis! I am amazed at how Spirit, God, works in my life! I find that the more grateful I am about what I have, the more that comes to me, and it grows, simply because I pay attention to it! I look for the the gift in everything that comes and everything that happens to me--even, maybe even especially--in those things that I have to look into very deeply to find!

The gift is ALWAYS THERE!

I always find that I am so very blessed and in so very many ways!

I decided I will also make the commitment to Gratitude Journaling! This feels like an investment in becoming even more concretely conscious of just how very much God works in such positive and wonderful ways in my life--and as far as I can tell, God never works in any other way in mine or anyone else's life--if I/We look deeply enough!

I ran across an image that speaks my feelings about this subject exactly:

I am SO HAPPY! Thank you, God, for the gift of all the Abundance in my life! Thank you for all the Happiness I feel on a regular basis! I love it all and I am GRATEFUL for it all!

Do I still have bouts of body pain? Yes.

Do I still struggle with depression, anxiety or fear on occasion? Yes.

Do I have it all figured out and am I perfect with gratitude all the time? No.

But I am getting better and better at allowing the difficulties without getting lost in them. I am getting better and better at looking deeply to find the gifts in all things that come to me! This is MASSIVE GROWTH in me!

And it all makes me So Very Happy!

And now I ask you:

Love & Hugs & Blessings,
Barbara