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It has been a challenging week.
I did several sessions with clients this week--two of whom have turned up with cancer. One knew about it when I was working with her, but said nothing to me about it until our session was nearly over. The other found out after having a mammogram that was reported as being fine. Both were a shock for me. I cannot imagine how hard this must be for these two people! I send them both much love and many prayers for healing!
I didn't see a single thing about cancer in the health of either one of these people. I saw nothing except a big, fat, black and bolded Question Mark when they asked me about their health!! I could not see past the Question Mark!
It seems that we are not allowed access to know about some things at certain times!
Working with others about their healing is nothing to take lightly. This is real life with real serious problems. I feel like I've got a lot of growing to do in order to be a better vessel for these specific kinds of issues, (and probably other issues that I haven't even figured out yet!) It is easier to work with others when it is lifestyle that is the problem...but...life threatening issues...WOW, this caught me completely off guard!
I should have seen this coming, but instead, I ran smack-dab into the wall. It's a growing space for me...so this is good, even though it is NOT COMFORTABLE!
So much has not been comfortable for me lately. But all has absolutely been worth going through the discomfort!
I have also been experiencing distance in one of my most important relationships. This person has been a long-term healer, spiritual advisor and friend to me for more than 10 years. In fact, it is having worked so hard and so long with her on my spiritual journey that lead me to the re-discovery of my intuitive and mediumship abilities--among a host of other wonderful discoveries along the way.
She grows more silent and withdrawn by the day. The more I try to tell her about my amazing experiences on this path, the quieter she seems to be getting. Now I can tell her almost nothing at all. It feels sad not to be able to share with her all the wonderful discoveries I have been making. It feels awful not to be able to share my pain and helplessness with her when I am learning about working with people that have cancer.
Whenever I get in difficult spots I have only to meditate and the most amazing things happen! The love and compassion of Spirit holds me and comforts and nurtures my entire being—on every level, and without fail!
I am so grateful for this!
Perhaps this is the lesson for me about this. Perhaps the lesson is to keep going within to Spirit for support and compassion and to let others off-the-hook.
I have been working through the book, “Opening To Channel,” and practicing this week. The following is a message that “came through” in a channeling experience I had yesterday. I am going to just pass it on as I received it:
This is the time of family, of love, and connection with others—even those that are far away in miles. It is a special time of year that makes it all the more easily to feel the love and presence of something much greater than you.
Allow the Season to be in you, to be part of you. Notice that Season has a capital “S.” That is for a reason. Think about it.
Savor and enjoy the good times, the wonder, the joy of family and friends, of soft, winter quiet, and glistening snow. If you are in places of different environments, enjoy whatever it is that is the essence of the place where you are. Really allow yourself to see it, feel it, smell it, and be in it.
Feel the love of mankind for the persons that they each love. Remember that you are all one, all part of the same Divine Source. Remember that the love you give to your family and your friends is also the same love that is to be given for all of humanity. Give it. Be the giving angel that spreads it all over the planet. Dare to love and express it to others, even those for which you have no other connection than the unity of your humanity.
And so it is!
A Blessed and Happy Christmas to you all!
Barbara
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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Joy Beyond Measure
I followed through with showing up at the “Psychic Readings for Psychics” gathering last Sunday. It was an awesome experience! I received much validation about my intuitive accuracy from every single person for which I did a reading! Yahoooo!
I can see that I need to TRUST my abilities more and just get the heck out of the way and allow Source messages and guidance to come through my being easily, without my fretting and over-analyzing about the process of doing this work!
It was a great gift to be challenged into attending this gathering! It was also a great gift to muster up my courage and do this!
Last night I did a session with a pretty famous deep trance channel named April Crawford. She channels a highly evolved Spirit Guide called Veronica. Veronica is incredible! Her messages are so empowering and healing! Here is a link to my favorite one of her healing messages. I believe everyone will benefit by watching this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KFXAXdCiYw
April/Veronica told me that I am a very old soul. She told me that I have been an oracle for many lifetimes and even though I feel like a greenhorn with using all of these abilities, she told me that I am very gifted in this way. What a huge validation this is for me!
April/Veronica cautioned me about being very vigilant and strict in budgeting my time to use my abilities for others. I continue being approached by more and more people asking to work with me! April/Veronica told me this will only grow bigger!
This could be a big red flag for me.
I am a long-term caretaker, (recovering co-dependent). I have experienced some mighty tough lessons in the past due to my giving and giving without adequate down-time for myself. This whole intuitive-mediumship experience is a lesson in boundary drawing for me. If I do not manage my time and my energy adequately, there will not be enough of me left to work with anyone. I know that if I take care of myself in this space, it will be the best for all involved. But it is hard to do this when I see people in pain and wanting my assistance!
I will work on this! I’ve been working on it for at least 10 years. It is an Energy Matrix in me, something that I have to manage on a regular basis as I have never been able to heal it completely!
April Crawford/Veronica told me that I have deep trace channeling in my future, that I have two highly evolved Spirit Guides from the Causal Plane that want to work with me and with others through me. I don’t even know what the “Causal Plane” is! I will have to research this. I look forward to getting to meet these Guides and learning from them!
April/Veronica suggested that I buy a particular book about channeling. The book is called: “Opening To Channel” by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer. I have to tell you a “synchronistic funny” about this! Four months ago I felt drawn to do some research about channeling, as I have had some conscious channeling experiences already, and I found THIS VERY BOOK in a used book store and bought it! This was months before I ever met April Crawford/Veronica last night!
There are no accidents. Everything is in Divine Order!
I do hope that I will be able to channel consciously! I want to hear what the Guides are teaching! But whatever way this manifests, I will allow it.
I believe that I can also learn a tremendous amount about channeling from Steve Rother and The Group that he channels. Steve is a long time channel. He is a wonderful teacher that I enjoyed very much when I took his Spiritual Psychology class recently. Steve offers a class called Spiritual Communication that is all about channeling. I can’t wait until it is offered again as I have known for several months that I am supposed to take the class. You can read about Steve, The Group and the classes Steve offers at https://lightworker.com/ .
The more I do and allow on my Spiritual Path, the less my body hurts! It is a great gift to be delivered from the horrible, unrelenting pain and exhaustion of Fibromyalgia. Whodda thunk this could be accomplished simply by stepping up to the plate with using my intuitive and mediumship abilities? I am amazed! And I am very grateful for the reprieve!
It is also a great gift for me to get to witness people healing and getting good information and help on their own spiritual path! I am so blessed and so glad for the opportunity to be of service in this healthy, holy and healing way!!!
Life is joyful beyond measure! It is this joy that is healing my body and healing my spirit!
We each have our own discoveries to make about that which brings us Joy in our life. When we can be in our Joy, little of the human condition bothers us very much. We are more positive, more loving and much more empowered! This changes everything about the mirrors that appear in our lives and what we attract to us—all for the positive!
FIND YOUR JOY—whatever it is! Look under every rock and in every cranny. Keep looking until you find it and then EMBRACE IT with your whole heart! Make it part of your life on a regular basis!! Your Body, Mind and Spirit will thank you!
Happy Hanukkah to all my friends of the Jewish persuasion!
Hugs & Blessings to everyone!
Barbara
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I can see that I need to TRUST my abilities more and just get the heck out of the way and allow Source messages and guidance to come through my being easily, without my fretting and over-analyzing about the process of doing this work!
It was a great gift to be challenged into attending this gathering! It was also a great gift to muster up my courage and do this!
Last night I did a session with a pretty famous deep trance channel named April Crawford. She channels a highly evolved Spirit Guide called Veronica. Veronica is incredible! Her messages are so empowering and healing! Here is a link to my favorite one of her healing messages. I believe everyone will benefit by watching this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KFXAXdCiYw
April/Veronica told me that I am a very old soul. She told me that I have been an oracle for many lifetimes and even though I feel like a greenhorn with using all of these abilities, she told me that I am very gifted in this way. What a huge validation this is for me!
April/Veronica cautioned me about being very vigilant and strict in budgeting my time to use my abilities for others. I continue being approached by more and more people asking to work with me! April/Veronica told me this will only grow bigger!
This could be a big red flag for me.
I am a long-term caretaker, (recovering co-dependent). I have experienced some mighty tough lessons in the past due to my giving and giving without adequate down-time for myself. This whole intuitive-mediumship experience is a lesson in boundary drawing for me. If I do not manage my time and my energy adequately, there will not be enough of me left to work with anyone. I know that if I take care of myself in this space, it will be the best for all involved. But it is hard to do this when I see people in pain and wanting my assistance!
I will work on this! I’ve been working on it for at least 10 years. It is an Energy Matrix in me, something that I have to manage on a regular basis as I have never been able to heal it completely!
April Crawford/Veronica told me that I have deep trace channeling in my future, that I have two highly evolved Spirit Guides from the Causal Plane that want to work with me and with others through me. I don’t even know what the “Causal Plane” is! I will have to research this. I look forward to getting to meet these Guides and learning from them!
April/Veronica suggested that I buy a particular book about channeling. The book is called: “Opening To Channel” by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer. I have to tell you a “synchronistic funny” about this! Four months ago I felt drawn to do some research about channeling, as I have had some conscious channeling experiences already, and I found THIS VERY BOOK in a used book store and bought it! This was months before I ever met April Crawford/Veronica last night!
There are no accidents. Everything is in Divine Order!
I do hope that I will be able to channel consciously! I want to hear what the Guides are teaching! But whatever way this manifests, I will allow it.
I believe that I can also learn a tremendous amount about channeling from Steve Rother and The Group that he channels. Steve is a long time channel. He is a wonderful teacher that I enjoyed very much when I took his Spiritual Psychology class recently. Steve offers a class called Spiritual Communication that is all about channeling. I can’t wait until it is offered again as I have known for several months that I am supposed to take the class. You can read about Steve, The Group and the classes Steve offers at https://lightworker.com/ .
The more I do and allow on my Spiritual Path, the less my body hurts! It is a great gift to be delivered from the horrible, unrelenting pain and exhaustion of Fibromyalgia. Whodda thunk this could be accomplished simply by stepping up to the plate with using my intuitive and mediumship abilities? I am amazed! And I am very grateful for the reprieve!
It is also a great gift for me to get to witness people healing and getting good information and help on their own spiritual path! I am so blessed and so glad for the opportunity to be of service in this healthy, holy and healing way!!!
Life is joyful beyond measure! It is this joy that is healing my body and healing my spirit!
We each have our own discoveries to make about that which brings us Joy in our life. When we can be in our Joy, little of the human condition bothers us very much. We are more positive, more loving and much more empowered! This changes everything about the mirrors that appear in our lives and what we attract to us—all for the positive!
FIND YOUR JOY—whatever it is! Look under every rock and in every cranny. Keep looking until you find it and then EMBRACE IT with your whole heart! Make it part of your life on a regular basis!! Your Body, Mind and Spirit will thank you!
Happy Hanukkah to all my friends of the Jewish persuasion!
Hugs & Blessings to everyone!
Barbara
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Friday, December 4, 2009
What Was I Thinking???
On Sunday I am going to a “Psychic Readings for Psychics” gathering.
The invitation read: “Let's get together for some conversation, fun and give readings for each other. It's a nice way to see how other readers work, share with others our knowledge and gifts, socialize and get some insight for ourselves…”
What the heck was I thinking when I decided this was a spectacular idea and I jumped at the chance, telling the group four weeks ago that I will attend??!!??
Now I am feeling mortified! The fear has been growing bigger by the day for the last two weeks!
I am wet behind the ears at this professional intuitive and medium stuff! The people attending this gathering are seasoned intuitives! They have been working at this professionally—some of them for many years. And here I am, a relative newbie, just getting my bearings with using my abilities professionally!
I have been on such a high since I finished the Spiritual Psychology class that I took from Lightworker and a Mediumship class that I took from Lisa Williams in October! I experienced unbelievable validation in both classes about my intuitive and mediumship abilities! Here I am now, wishing I had another validation shot-in-the-arm from someone or something outside of me, to help me believe in myself more deeply again! This would go a long way to giving me the courage to walk into this gathering on Sunday and not have a melt-down under the fear about it all!
What if I can’t read a darn thing? What if I freeze and stammer and look like a complete idiot in front of them all?? What if…What if…What if…???
This shot-in-the-arm should be coming from inside of me, not outside! Everything is in me already. I know this!! And yet, here I am, looking outside of me to show me that I’m OK!
There are no guarantees. There is no such thing as safety. There is no way to completely alleviate my fears. This is the “Trust and Surrender” space!
Ha! This is just another opportunity to make a Leap of Faith! It is just hiding under gut-wrenching fear!
I will spend some time in meditation and get myself as aligned with Spirit as I can get. I will allow this fear, as I cannot seem to find any way in which to quell it!
But one thing it is not going to do is to stop me!
I am going to show up at this gathering of professional intuitives. I am going to be fully present and partake in these activities. I am going to risk doing whatever I feel that Spirit is asking of me in the moment, no matter how loud the fear is in my gut!
I am grateful for the courage. But this sure is not easy!
Barbara
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The invitation read: “Let's get together for some conversation, fun and give readings for each other. It's a nice way to see how other readers work, share with others our knowledge and gifts, socialize and get some insight for ourselves…”
What the heck was I thinking when I decided this was a spectacular idea and I jumped at the chance, telling the group four weeks ago that I will attend??!!??
Now I am feeling mortified! The fear has been growing bigger by the day for the last two weeks!
I am wet behind the ears at this professional intuitive and medium stuff! The people attending this gathering are seasoned intuitives! They have been working at this professionally—some of them for many years. And here I am, a relative newbie, just getting my bearings with using my abilities professionally!
I have been on such a high since I finished the Spiritual Psychology class that I took from Lightworker and a Mediumship class that I took from Lisa Williams in October! I experienced unbelievable validation in both classes about my intuitive and mediumship abilities! Here I am now, wishing I had another validation shot-in-the-arm from someone or something outside of me, to help me believe in myself more deeply again! This would go a long way to giving me the courage to walk into this gathering on Sunday and not have a melt-down under the fear about it all!
What if I can’t read a darn thing? What if I freeze and stammer and look like a complete idiot in front of them all?? What if…What if…What if…???
This shot-in-the-arm should be coming from inside of me, not outside! Everything is in me already. I know this!! And yet, here I am, looking outside of me to show me that I’m OK!
There are no guarantees. There is no such thing as safety. There is no way to completely alleviate my fears. This is the “Trust and Surrender” space!
Ha! This is just another opportunity to make a Leap of Faith! It is just hiding under gut-wrenching fear!
I will spend some time in meditation and get myself as aligned with Spirit as I can get. I will allow this fear, as I cannot seem to find any way in which to quell it!
But one thing it is not going to do is to stop me!
I am going to show up at this gathering of professional intuitives. I am going to be fully present and partake in these activities. I am going to risk doing whatever I feel that Spirit is asking of me in the moment, no matter how loud the fear is in my gut!
I am grateful for the courage. But this sure is not easy!
Barbara
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