Be The Season!

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It has been a challenging week.

I did several sessions with clients this week--two of whom have turned up with cancer. One knew about it when I was working with her, but said nothing to me about it until our session was nearly over. The other found out after having a mammogram that was reported as being fine. Both were a shock for me. I cannot imagine how hard this must be for these two people! I send them both much love and many prayers for healing!

I didn't see a single thing about cancer in the health of either one of these people. I saw nothing except a big, fat, black and bolded Question Mark when they asked me about their health!! I could not see past the Question Mark!

It seems that we are not allowed access to know about some things at certain times!

Working with others about their healing is nothing to take lightly. This is real life with real serious problems. I feel like I've got a lot of growing to do in order to be a better vessel for these specific kinds of issues, (and probably other issues that I haven't even figured out yet!) It is easier to work with others when it is lifestyle that is the problem...but...life threatening issues...WOW, this caught me completely off guard!

I should have seen this coming, but instead, I ran smack-dab into the wall. It's a growing space for me...so this is good, even though it is NOT COMFORTABLE!

So much has not been comfortable for me lately. But all has absolutely been worth going through the discomfort!

I have also been experiencing distance in one of my most important relationships. This person has been a long-term healer, spiritual advisor and friend to me for more than 10 years. In fact, it is having worked so hard and so long with her on my spiritual journey that lead me to the re-discovery of my intuitive and mediumship abilities--among a host of other wonderful discoveries along the way.

She grows more silent and withdrawn by the day. The more I try to tell her about my amazing experiences on this path, the quieter she seems to be getting. Now I can tell her almost nothing at all. It feels sad not to be able to share with her all the wonderful discoveries I have been making. It feels awful not to be able to share my pain and helplessness with her when I am learning about working with people that have cancer.

Whenever I get in difficult spots I have only to meditate and the most amazing things happen! The love and compassion of Spirit holds me and comforts and nurtures my entire being—on every level, and without fail!

I am so grateful for this!

Perhaps this is the lesson for me about this. Perhaps the lesson is to keep going within to Spirit for support and compassion and to let others off-the-hook.

I have been working through the book, “Opening To Channel,” and practicing this week. The following is a message that “came through” in a channeling experience I had yesterday. I am going to just pass it on as I received it:

This is the time of family, of love, and connection with others—even those that are far away in miles. It is a special time of year that makes it all the more easily to feel the love and presence of something much greater than you.

Allow the Season to be in you, to be part of you. Notice that Season has a capital “S.” That is for a reason. Think about it.

Savor and enjoy the good times, the wonder, the joy of family and friends, of soft, winter quiet, and glistening snow. If you are in places of different environments, enjoy whatever it is that is the essence of the place where you are. Really allow yourself to see it, feel it, smell it, and be in it.

Feel the love of mankind for the persons that they each love. Remember that you are all one, all part of the same Divine Source. Remember that the love you give to your family and your friends is also the same love that is to be given for all of humanity. Give it. Be the giving angel that spreads it all over the planet. Dare to love and express it to others, even those for which you have no other connection than the unity of your humanity.

And so it is!

A Blessed and Happy Christmas to you all!

Barbara
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Joy Beyond Measure

I followed through with showing up at the “Psychic Readings for Psychics” gathering last Sunday. It was an awesome experience! I received much validation about my intuitive accuracy from every single person for which I did a reading! Yahoooo!

I can see that I need to TRUST my abilities more and just get the heck out of the way and allow Source messages and guidance to come through my being easily, without my fretting and over-analyzing about the process of doing this work!

It was a great gift to be challenged into attending this gathering! It was also a great gift to muster up my courage and do this!

Last night I did a session with a pretty famous deep trance channel named April Crawford. She channels a highly evolved Spirit Guide called Veronica. Veronica is incredible! Her messages are so empowering and healing! Here is a link to my favorite one of her healing messages. I believe everyone will benefit by watching this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KFXAXdCiYw

April/Veronica told me that I am a very old soul. She told me that I have been an oracle for many lifetimes and even though I feel like a greenhorn with using all of these abilities, she told me that I am very gifted in this way. What a huge validation this is for me!

April/Veronica cautioned me about being very vigilant and strict in budgeting my time to use my abilities for others. I continue being approached by more and more people asking to work with me! April/Veronica told me this will only grow bigger!

This could be a big red flag for me.

I am a long-term caretaker, (recovering co-dependent). I have experienced some mighty tough lessons in the past due to my giving and giving without adequate down-time for myself. This whole intuitive-mediumship experience is a lesson in boundary drawing for me. If I do not manage my time and my energy adequately, there will not be enough of me left to work with anyone. I know that if I take care of myself in this space, it will be the best for all involved. But it is hard to do this when I see people in pain and wanting my assistance!

I will work on this! I’ve been working on it for at least 10 years. It is an Energy Matrix in me, something that I have to manage on a regular basis as I have never been able to heal it completely!

April Crawford/Veronica told me that I have deep trace channeling in my future, that I have two highly evolved Spirit Guides from the Causal Plane that want to work with me and with others through me. I don’t even know what the “Causal Plane” is! I will have to research this. I look forward to getting to meet these Guides and learning from them!

April/Veronica suggested that I buy a particular book about channeling. The book is called: “Opening To Channel” by Sanaya Roman and Duane Packer. I have to tell you a “synchronistic funny” about this! Four months ago I felt drawn to do some research about channeling, as I have had some conscious channeling experiences already, and I found THIS VERY BOOK in a used book store and bought it! This was months before I ever met April Crawford/Veronica last night!

There are no accidents. Everything is in Divine Order!

I do hope that I will be able to channel consciously! I want to hear what the Guides are teaching! But whatever way this manifests, I will allow it.

I believe that I can also learn a tremendous amount about channeling from Steve Rother and The Group that he channels. Steve is a long time channel. He is a wonderful teacher that I enjoyed very much when I took his Spiritual Psychology class recently. Steve offers a class called Spiritual Communication that is all about channeling. I can’t wait until it is offered again as I have known for several months that I am supposed to take the class. You can read about Steve, The Group and the classes Steve offers at https://lightworker.com/ .

The more I do and allow on my Spiritual Path, the less my body hurts! It is a great gift to be delivered from the horrible, unrelenting pain and exhaustion of Fibromyalgia. Whodda thunk this could be accomplished simply by stepping up to the plate with using my intuitive and mediumship abilities? I am amazed! And I am very grateful for the reprieve!

It is also a great gift for me to get to witness people healing and getting good information and help on their own spiritual path! I am so blessed and so glad for the opportunity to be of service in this healthy, holy and healing way!!!

Life is joyful beyond measure! It is this joy that is healing my body and healing my spirit!

We each have our own discoveries to make about that which brings us Joy in our life. When we can be in our Joy, little of the human condition bothers us very much. We are more positive, more loving and much more empowered! This changes everything about the mirrors that appear in our lives and what we attract to us—all for the positive!

FIND YOUR JOY—whatever it is! Look under every rock and in every cranny. Keep looking until you find it and then EMBRACE IT with your whole heart! Make it part of your life on a regular basis!! Your Body, Mind and Spirit will thank you!

Happy Hanukkah to all my friends of the Jewish persuasion!

Hugs & Blessings to everyone!

Barbara
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What Was I Thinking???

On Sunday I am going to a “Psychic Readings for Psychics” gathering.

The invitation read: “Let's get together for some conversation, fun and give readings for each other. It's a nice way to see how other readers work, share with others our knowledge and gifts, socialize and get some insight for ourselves…”

What the heck was I thinking when I decided this was a spectacular idea and I jumped at the chance, telling the group four weeks ago that I will attend??!!??

Now I am feeling mortified! The fear has been growing bigger by the day for the last two weeks!

I am wet behind the ears at this professional intuitive and medium stuff! The people attending this gathering are seasoned intuitives! They have been working at this professionally—some of them for many years. And here I am, a relative newbie, just getting my bearings with using my abilities professionally!

I have been on such a high since I finished the Spiritual Psychology class that I took from Lightworker and a Mediumship class that I took from Lisa Williams in October! I experienced unbelievable validation in both classes about my intuitive and mediumship abilities! Here I am now, wishing I had another validation shot-in-the-arm from someone or something outside of me, to help me believe in myself more deeply again! This would go a long way to giving me the courage to walk into this gathering on Sunday and not have a melt-down under the fear about it all!

What if I can’t read a darn thing? What if I freeze and stammer and look like a complete idiot in front of them all?? What if…What if…What if…???

This shot-in-the-arm should be coming from inside of me, not outside! Everything is in me already. I know this!! And yet, here I am, looking outside of me to show me that I’m OK!

There are no guarantees. There is no such thing as safety. There is no way to completely alleviate my fears. This is the “Trust and Surrender” space!

Ha! This is just another opportunity to make a Leap of Faith! It is just hiding under gut-wrenching fear!

I will spend some time in meditation and get myself as aligned with Spirit as I can get. I will allow this fear, as I cannot seem to find any way in which to quell it!

But one thing it is not going to do is to stop me!

I am going to show up at this gathering of professional intuitives. I am going to be fully present and partake in these activities. I am going to risk doing whatever I feel that Spirit is asking of me in the moment, no matter how loud the fear is in my gut!

I am grateful for the courage. But this sure is not easy!

Barbara
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Mirror, Mirror, On the Wall

Relationships are mirrors for us. They accurately reflect for us, some part of ourselves. They reflect God within us. They reflect things about ourselves that we do not like, things that need healing work in us.

No matter what is happening in our life, in any given moment, what we are seeing and experiencing is never about another person. It is always about us. This is true, even if someone is in our face, taking advantage of us, being negative, chaotic, judgmental or brutish.

It is always easy for me to intuitively sense when someone is being judgmental towards me. It is rarely easy for me to be clear about when I am being judgmental towards myself.

I sometimes find myself blaming the reflections in my life for what I, myself, am doing to me. Very often though, the feelings that I perceive are really going on from both sides—mine and the other person(s).

It seems that those that we love the most are often the least able to be helpful and supportive to us when we are going through reevaluations and changes in how we choose to live our lives. Often they are invested in keeping us and our relationship systems exactly as they have always been.

Keeping the status quo in our lives is usually not healthy, holy and healing for most of us. It is only when we risk moving forward in our lives, daring to be in our Truth and risking doing the things that make us happy and filled with passion that our lives can be transformed into amazing, joyful and magically fulfilling experiences!

In the last few weeks I have stepped concretely into an important calling in my life. As I have dared to risk doing this, I am being given gifts beyond my wildest imagination! I am very blessed and humbled by all that is happening in my life!

Regardless of any judgments I am feeling from others, regardless of any judgments and fears I may bestow upon myself, I must continue working from my Inner Direction. I must continue to trust my Higher Guidance that what I am being lead to do is in my highest good and the highest good of others. And I certainly do believe these things!

I have taken many very big risks in my life lately. This is opening opportunities and experiences that I have never even dreamed about previously. I am stunned as I witness situations miraculously just falling into place, circumstances being manifested out of thin air and literally being laid in my lap, with little intervention on my part! People are coming in droves into my life, asking to work with me! All I have done is to take the risks to walk in my passion and speak my Truth openly in the world.

This is taking huge “Leaps of Faith!” And I can tell you that the reflections of these mirrors are the most wondrous that I have ever witnessed in my life! I am so very appreciative for the opportunities, for the gifts, and for the lessons!

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you!
Barbara

"As Above, So Below"

This short little fragmented sentence has hit me in the face in so many different scenarios in the last few weeks that I am completely bowled over by it. Spirit is really hammering it into my awareness!

But what does it mean?

What is the Universe trying to get me to see?

The very first person to put this quote in my face recently was Dr. Richard Jelusich, (http://www.lightnews.org/ ), a Human Sciences specialist, spiritual healer, counselor, gifted psychic, technology researcher, author and international lecturer. I listened to him speak recently and really like him. I felt called to do a healing session with him, and so I did.

Dr. Jelusich told me that I am “Throat Chakra Dominant.”

What the heck does that mean?

What it means is that it is in my best interests and the interests of others to do what Spirit has been calling me to do for at least a year and a half—that being to blog about my personal spiritual journey.

Even considering doing this brings out a cold sweat in me.

I’ve been a journaler since I was about 11 years old, (I’m 54 years old now). Journaling was a way to survive through many very difficult times for me. I could say whatever I wanted to in my journal, without risk of offending another. I could blast anyone that I was angry with, and never have to be out of control with those feelings in the real world. I could be in the sadness that I sometimes feel without risk of judgment or rejection. I could be…real.

Spirit is calling me to “be real” outwardly, to share it all, for others to see and experience too.

I’m being shown now that sharing my journey through whatever has been placed on my path is healing for me. It is important for me to own in an outward way, exactly who I am. Further, it is important for me to share my raw, unvarnished plodding through anything and everything that comes up for me. Of this I am certain. Spirit just keeps at me, nudging me on relentlessly to do this!

Alright, already! I’ll do it!

Sharing my journey may be helpful to some other poor shmuck also stumbling and struggling on their trek through life too.

It is important to know that we are not alone.

It is important to know that we are not really much different than anyone else, either. We just sometimes think that we are.

So just want does “As Above, So Below” mean for me? What is the Universe trying to convey to me by putting this sentence in my face repeatedly lately?

It is often very difficult for me to stay grounded in my body. My body is sometimes a rough place in which to live. It is much easier to get hooked into the spiritual, the esoteric, those things completely “removed from the earth plane.” But I am hearing loudly and clearly that in order for me to move further on my path, to be in integrity with my throat chakra dominance, I must now learn to be in this body, on this earth, speaking my Truth, no matter how hard that might sometimes be.

I have had a misunderstanding. I thought my goal was to perfect my meditation skills, to get more and more deeply Source connected. Now I am being slammed back to the earth, being told that I must do these things while still being in my body! I do not know if I can do this all the time, but I see that when I can stay in my body, staying grounded, that it helps me on all levels of my life!

So now I have an appointment in my Palm Pilot every morning at 7:35 AM. The alarm rings loudly and reminds me to STAY GROUNDED. At that moment, I stop everything and begin breathing and grounding exercises for a few minutes. It really is helping me to stay more grounded and as a result, miraculous things are happening in my life!

Future blog entries will be about anything and everything that happens in my life. I will share my experiences about things like:

* Spiritual and Energy Healing
* Spiritual Psychology, identifying and working
on Life Lessons
* Meditation
* Parenting and Step-Parenting
* Recovering from Co-Dependency
* Healing dysfunctional family dynamics
* Struggling with weight all of my life
* Coming to terms with and whipping Fibromyalgia
* Coming to terms with other physically handicapping
conditions
* Owning, expanding, and using my psychic-mediumship
abilities, including my experiences learning to
come to terms with seeing spirits and doing intuitive
and mediumship readings for others

I look forward to sharing this journey, even if my knees are knocking!

Barbara